"They only allowed me hope and when hope is all you have to feed your great hunger, you can chew on it and chew on it, but hope alone cannot sustain."

They only want to fyuck with you after you've made your way. But when you started out, you couldn't pay them to stay.

I use to be a sweet dude, now im soo angry. Look at what these girls and these fake niggas made.

The shadow of the axe hangs over every joy. Every road ends in death. Every friendship. Every love. Torment. Loss. Betrayal. Pain. & Suffering....

I've Discovered im too nice of a guy. I've Decided going to fight to the death to change that.

Thank You Lupe Fiasco

In his newly released song off his upcoming album, Lupe captures all the shit that has been bothering him and spit it out on this new track. Extremely dope how the hook relates to the shit I’ve been going through with every fucking person I come across. Dude is done looking for the rewind button. Fuck with me or don’t. Fuck you all.

“ I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence. Fear is such a weak emotion, that’s why I despise it.”

Ps. The last verse is FIRE!

It’s So Loud Inside My Head. With Words That I Should Have Said.

First I‘d like to say “FUCK LOVE”. This post will not be about that fictitious shit. However, if you have ever not said something, and then that shit sits inside your head for weeks on end leaving you fucked inn the head? I don’t really care if you have; I have. And I'm talking about the meaningful shit that you hold back to not step on toes, FUCK THAT some shit needs to be said. Problem is, we let the douche bags speak to much. Simple solution: don’t hold back shit. “The power of life and death lies in thy own tongue”

Know Your Place

People don’t realize the little shit in life. I need to find people that appreciate the company of other people. Honestly if I cant sit with you for 5 minuets in silence without you or I feeling awkward, then we are not friends. Honestly if that shit is chill then crazy missions at 3 in the morning to hookah lounges and parties would be the very juice of life. I can only count 3 people in my life that can turn silent moments to Charlie Chapman master pieces.

Today is Feb 14th...

Fuck that bitch...sorry wome but one can fuck it up forall yall

NOTICE!!!

It is very important to note tat whenever reading a post from this blog, you must play this song in the background. No exceptions.

Color me Chill

This over going to a Club anytime! Dead Ass!


I’d like to think of myself as a chill person that nobody understands. Love art, food, and living life. This includes experiencing every crazy nuke and cranny of it. Most “Black” friends don’t understand I’d rather go to the top of a mountain with random people and just get lost while on some type of drug in my system. They would rather go to a hot packed room and dance. I’m not in contrast with that type of fun…at very few times in my life I have and still do it…but its just not my life style. I see the life I live now as a constant unraveling of new understanding and crazy spontaneity and adventure. My cousin asked me about a party the other day. I told her I don’t know. She responded sarcastically by asking “oh, no life huh?” I guess this rant is a strong angry rebuttal of closed minded people like that. I go on random crazy adventures every other weekend why you get dressed to go down the block…..who has a life? Whatever…I guess we all have our own expectations and experiences in life and how we view other people is based on those principles. Just know I will never tell the 13 year old anti social kid playing dungeon & dragons that he has no life. He’s happy and content in his reality and for me to degrade that would be douche. Color me chill.

Play

....If this does not paint a vivid image of the tattered remains of my psyche at this moment in time then I don’t know what does.
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Humble Math

Def Sound on "Humble Math" from Cr:)z on Vimeo.


I try to live life this way because I truly believe there is always work to be done. Somebody is always better than you at whatever you are your best at. Annndd your only as good as at what you do as how nice your friends and supporters are. Some people may call me pessimistic or insecure when I don’t really accept complements but honestly...like this dude...its just knowing that what you did can, could, and has been done way better than what your supporters saw you do. Knowing there is still work to be done. Simple as that.


PS!!: If ANYBODY KNOWS the name of the SONG playing while the dude is talking....LET ME KNOW!

Wheelmen & Company Babylon Backpack

At the momment this is all i want inn life...other than enlightenment and understanding of myself and the world around me.

YOU WILL LAUGH SOOO FUCKING HARD

Pure DOPE Shit

The Sunset Limited is an amazing piece of work. It was a play written by cormac McCarthy and was made into a short/long film by HBO. It premiered last night and it was mind blowing. The story starts and ends with two men, played by Samuel L. Jackson and Tommy Lee Johns, who sit in an apartment and discus Life, Death, Religion, and Suicide, among many other in-betweens after Jackson's character saves or rather stops Jones' character from comiting suicide by runing into a train (The Suntset Limited). They sit in an appartment talking for about an hour and 20 minuets straight nonstop. This short film is the bread and butter of an intellectual and I cant wait to run into someone who has seen it. Its some mad superb shit.

OMG! STFU, RELAX, & Press PLAY!

MISFITS!

For those of you who are UK incompetent; No worries, I was too. Misfits is a UK television show that has boom drastically in just two seasons. So much so that , just like Skins UK, the US is attempting to copy and past it to our networks. (PROTEST THIS -_-!!!) The premise of this show is that 5 young adults all over 18, while serving their community service, are struck by lightening and given super natural powers. Once they discover them, they soon realize that there were not the only ones struck by lightening that day in London and spend other episodes not fighting to protect the grater good like bullshit American TV, but instead they use them to save their own asses from the other crazy people who gained powers. That’s what so good about this show…most of the scenarios are REAL SHIT and not some stupid shit you get from USA TV that has you angry at why the main characters are so fucking stupid. This show is just toooooo gooood to explain and is a paradigm shift against an American way of thinking when it comes to Normal people getting Super powers. Its has SEX! DRUGS! CUSSING! AMAZING UK SLANG! Fuck let me stop talking and just go you tube it! The 1st episode may start slow but once you get to the second….you wont want to leave your computer.


Watch FIRTS EPISODE HERE!!

20 random shits about Marcus

Bringing this blog back because it’s the only way to revive sanity. So here is an intro to me and shit.

1. I 18, Film undergrad at CSUN
2. Born June 14, 1992.
3, Most people don’t know that’s Flag Day
4. I’m a Gemini . look me up...-_-
5. When walking alone and listening to music I always feel like I’m walking funny so I walk faster to get to my destination so as to no embarrass myself with the funny walking I’m not sure I even do.
6. I listen to ever possible Genre of music excluding Country and Heavy metal.
7. At this moment in my life, I am addicted to Dubstep.
8. I believe Dubstep is an evil mastermind music genre that is taking over the world and I do not wish to stop it. And if the government attempted to....id kill them.
9. When something interests me. I will probably use the words: Dope, Sick, Wow, The Sheet(shit), Word, The Shit of life, or I might just yell “FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK”.
10. I am a struggling Christian
11. Meaning…I know drugs are bad but I do them from time to time and feel guilty after. And repent.
12. Don’t judge me. A sin is a sin. If you cuss you can go to hell as easily as me-_-
13. I don’t trust most people.
14. I accept the fact that I “Know” NOTHING.
15. I crave intellectual conversations. They are the shit of life.
16. I typically don’t trust people born in May.
17. I use to crave hip - hop but good artist are hard to find now a days thus my infatuation with Dubstep.
18. Spoken Word / Slam Poetry = Life
19. I believe the UK is the best/sickest place in the world.
Last but not least….20. I wouldn’t hold me to every single thing in this list simply being that I do not know myself very well. All I know for sure is I don’t trust people, I fuck with spontaneity, and up until the second semester of 12 grade…I thought I was smarter than I really was. I know I know Nothing now.

..Leeeblooog

"I often forget that my skin is not a panic room."
- Rudy Francisco


(photo & skin)